“Mustard Seed Faith” by Marjory Bankson

October 2, 2016z16-09-11 Recommitment

Twentieth Sunday after Pentecost

Text: Luke 17:5-10 “If you had faith the size of a mustard seed, you could say to this mulberry tree, ‘Be uprooted and planted in the sea,’ and it would obey you.”

Recommitment season happens at Seekers every year at this time, and it recalls our roots in Church of the Saviour. From 1946, when it started, to 1976, when it was reborn as six small churches, C of S became widely known through Elizabeth O’Connor’s books and Mary Cosby’s presence at various conferences. As a mark of its vision for Christian unity, Church of the Saviour even joined the World Council of Churches in 1948 as the Council was forming after WW II. And that’s one of the reasons why we use the lectionary today – because it links us with church unity by using the same biblical texts that other churches use around the world.

We were anxious and a bit fearful the first time we came through the doors at 2025 Mass. Avenue, where the church was then located. Peter was still on active duty then, assigned by the Army to the Pentagon, and we knew that people at C of S had been active in the anti-Vietnam War movement, as well as the civil rights movement of the late 60s and early 70s. I was a production potter, starting a new business in a new place, and we were short of time and wary of commitment. But we were warmly welcomed by the Gateway Mission Group and they encouraged us to attend Fall classes in the School of Christian Living.

Our mustard seed-sized faith was planted in good soil at the School. We tasted its culture of commitment by getting to know others in class who had been around longer and they didn’t seem too saintly after all. By the time Recommitment rolled around on the third Sunday of October, we understood that Seekers Church had just been approved by the Council as a C of S church, and that people who were already members of Church of the Saviour would be able to make their first commitment to Seekers Church. Today, Joan Dodge, Mary Carol Dragoo, Emily Gilbert and Muriel Lipp remain with us as founding members.

Unlike the other C of S churches which formed around a single mission, Seekers declared its call to be a church that would support ministry in daily life. The original call of Seekers Church (which you have on the back of your bulletin insert) claims that we may be called to ministry at work and at home, in volunteer work and as a citizen. Ministry in daily life became our tagline.

Seekers also claimed shared leadership as a core value. At first, Fred preached regularly and Sonya served as the primary liturgist. She believed that liturgy – the whole shape of the service, including prayers, music, scripture, responsive readings and the sermon – would form our spiritual lives as a community. Her prayers addressed God in many different forms, and I felt my spirit begin to soar as we expanded our language beyond God as “Father.”

At first, the School of Christian Living stayed under the wing of Church of the Saviour. But within two years, the Tuesday night School became the Seekers School of Christian Living, because all of the people in that mission group were Seekers. The Thursday night School remained an arm of C of S until the Servant Leadership School was formed at the Festival Center in the late 80s. Its’ focus was not on preparing people for membership in one of the sister churches, but on changing the understanding of church. In that, the audience for the Servant Leadership School was wider than the five C of S churches along Columbia Road.

My own commitment to Seekers became more complex as I became a Steward in 1979, left Stewardship in 1981, and rejoined in 1984, after we returned from Germany. The years away from Seekers were full of turmoil for us. Peter retired from the Army, found a job with Synergy here in DC, and I started taking classes at Virginia Seminary. I wasn’t sure whether to leave Seekers and seek ordination in the Episcopal Church, or stay here and look for another kind of call. My hour in the sanctuary prior to recommitment each year was full of questions rather than answers. I let go of my illusions about an ideal community that would fill in the gaps left by my biological family, and I learned to stay with my questions, letting them unfold and grow wings rather than blaming Seekers for what was going on inside of me.

Faith@Work, which was my primary place for “outreach teaching” for the next 20 years.

As my focus shifted to my work in the world, recommitting to Seekers every year seemed as natural as Halloween or Thanksgiving. No real obstacles surfaced when I spent my hour in the sanctuary, praying about my desire to be part of this community – except for the anxious years around the purchase of this building and raising money from ourselves for the renovation. Several key people did leave during that time and I might have left without Peter’s strong commitment to staying together as congregation.

In retrospect, I see that congregational crises have actually developed resilience among those who have made a commitment to caring for the whole. When we exercise those muscles, they become stronger and more flexible. We trust those who stay because our commitments have been tested.

But now Peter and I are at another turning point, and my faith seems pitifully small again. As some of you know, we have bought an apartment about a block from here in order to be closer to Seekers as we age. It means leaving a house we have lived in for 40 years, along with familiar haunts for haircuts, tooth repair, groceries and the other gribble of daily life. In spite of moving frequently with Peter’s Army career, change is hard for me. I find myself asking questions like these: “Can I trust them to care? Who might be there when I need help? Will I be asking too much? What happens when I don’t have the energy to give as well as receive? ”

On silent retreat this past weekend, Marcia Sprague led us in XiGong movement and guided meditations designed to enlarge the space for God. As we moved through the weekend, I felt expansive and relaxed. By Saturday night, my dreams were literally tumbling out. I awoke on Sunday morning with a sense of excitement, but when I sat quietly with my journal, what came was an image of starting across a bridge with no handrail.

If you’ve been to Dayspring recently, you know that they have installed a wonderful handrail along the path between the sleeping quarters and the Lodge. But in my dream, I was starting up a steep curved arch with no handrail to steady me with my pilgrim pack on my back. I felt kind of homeless and afraid, wondering if we will be asking too much of Seekers after we move. We want to trust that the relationships that we have invested in will hold steady. Even though we do not intend to be a burden in the future, I am afraid that we will be. My ego wants assurance. My faith is only big enough to take the first step of confessing my fears.

The good news of the Gospel this week is that we can take Jesus at his word: faith the size of a tiny mustard seed is enough. I think the comment about moving a mulberry tree to another location is pure exaggeration. And in the mysterious parable which follows the mustard seed reference, I think Jesus is saying “Don’t expect a big reward for doing what you’re supposed to do.”

Listen to the text from that perspective:

The apostles said to the Lord, “Increase our faith!” [That’s the framework for his response. We’re talking here about spiritual formation.]

The Lord replied, “If you had faith the size of a mustard seed, you could say to this mulberry tree, ‘Be uprooted and planted in the sea,’ and it would obey you. [Here’s the reassurance for those with a tiny amount of faith: it will be more than enough. Luke says, “Don’t worry. Just take the next step.” Then he tells an odd story.]

[Here the apostles seem to be equated with demanding slave-holders, but Luke describes the situation like God’s banquet table, where a slave might be invited to sit down at the table. Somehow this scenario is a set-up for increasing their faith, so we need to listen carefully for the punchline.]

Worthless slaves? Such melodrama! What is Luke’s message here?

After wrestling with this text for a couple of weeks, I suspect the point is that we can’t earn our way into God’s grace. We have already been freed. We are already beloved. Therefore, even a small bit of faith is enough to start with. We are each invited to step forward, to say “yes” to the joy of being part of this body of Christ – to have a role in shaping it day by day, year by year.

And we each have been given work to do, and our job is just to do it with a whole heart. It may not change the world. It may not even bring someone else to Jesus. As Peter said last week in his sermon, attending to call and continuing to let God shape us toward loving one another as Jesus loved his disciples is the work that is ours to do. The reward is the work itself, and the sense of integrity that it brings.

As we gather around the table on this World Communion Sunday, let us remember that Christians all over the world are celebrating the same invitation. We are slaves to a different kind of Master – one who says “Come. Sit here at the table with me. Eat this bread. Drink this wine. Remember me at the heart of your ministry in daily life.”

May it be so. Amen.